An adventure in stream-of-semi-consciousness.
4 a.m., and it’s the absence of noise that wakes me up. Power’s out. Must’ve just happened, ‘cause the blades on the ceiling fan are still coming to a halt. Also: I’m still breathing. Little-known fact: Without electricity, a CPAP machine is nothing more than a snorkel with a box on the end of it.
So: I awoke in silence, a deathbox snorkel strapped to my face.
Now, I tend to look forward to rough storms. Not that I want people to suffer property damage or anything else; I just like good, aggressive weather. Tropical Storm Mosh Pit. I try not to be too cavalier about it, but my first reaction to a storm warning is not fear but excitement. Oh yes, I am Hurricane Hubris. Obviously I need a reminder now and then that storm porn is going to be a lot less fun if I’m not prepared.
This night, it wasn’t even raining out. Consider it a dry run.
OK, maybe it’s because the breaker box is on the outside of the house (but mostly it’s because I am quite paranoid—and more so in the middle of the night), but the first thing I think to do, upon waking up and realizing the power’s out, is protect myself from possible invasion. I mean, duh. I stumble through the house to make sure both doors are locked, enduring an aborted appendectomy attempt by the bicycle handlebars en route. Then I wonder at my invisible enemies’ potential battle plans, peering through the blinds in search of what seemed like the flicker of a flashlight beam in the yard.
(Yeah, it was lightning.)
If they have flashlights, I think to myself, then I’m really glad I have pants on.
And yeah, I dunno why someone would have to cut the power to break into my 600-square-foot apartment in the middle of the night—never mind why they would want to break into my 600-square-foot apartment in the first place—but brain’s gonna go where brain’s gonna go. And, ever-helpful, my brain seeks refuge in the calming mental sanctuary of an 80s slasher movie.
So, if someone’s coming after me, I’m probably going to need a flashlight. Where is the flashlight? No idea. Good thing my phone’s all bright…aaaaand about to die. Oh well, I’ll just have to plug it in.
This is bothersome to my bothered brain, because if someone does try to break in, I’m going to need a phone with power in it to call 911. But a flashlight is also important, so I can size up my attacker and/or scout possible escape routes. Natch.
From what I can tell, after 10 minutes of shining my apps into all the corners of my apartment at 4 a.m., I…don’t actually own a flashlight. Good to know. I do, however, have six matches and a vanilla-scented votive in a wee little flower pot. So I spend a few more minutes poking around with my illuminated flower pot, then finally decide that if I’m going to look like an idiot, I might as well be in the dark.
…but just in case, I grab six extra votives as I had back to bed.
And I wait.
Dude, island is dark. I think of the benefits of letting my eyes adjust to the darkness, but there’s not even enough ambient light to adjust to—nothing but the setting moon.
And it’s quiet. So quiet.
Oh, hey, y’know what doesn’t stop when the power’s out? Peacocks.
Also: CJ, ever the watchkitty, who lies in the ready position at my side, ears cocked forward and tail thwacking my ribs, as though monitoring the movements of something lingering just outside the door…
ARGH. Not helpful, cat.
Eventually, I drift off, dreaming of all the fun I’m going to have amassing a disaster preparedness kit—oh, the things that I’ll buy! Such a wonderful shopping adventure I’ll have, and I’ll never have to worry about the power going out again.
The fan starts whirring again around 6.
Sure enough, I’ve been unable to relocate my disaster preparedness enthusiasm in the daylight hours. What do I even need to buy? Canned goods? Pfft. And do I really not have a flashlight? I’m sure it’s around somewhere…
Powerlessness never seems like such a big deal, until you find yourself in the dark, counting matches and clutching a slowly dying flower pot.
Edited 6/20 to add: